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A New Look for Sugarwings’ Room on her 14th Birthday- Mermaids in the River Through the Forrest
cottage, Hand painted, Hand Painted Furniture, Sugarwings
Our birthday girl decided she would like to move back into the larger upstairs bedroom. But it had a lot of pink going on and she preferred aqua.
While she was on a vacation with her moms, I surprised her by un-pinking her room. At least the parts that were not hand painted, like the murals and roses.
Here is a before. It was a bit baby-ish. 
I repainted the bottom part of the walls, that had been a pale blush, took down the fairies and butterflies. Then moved some of her own artwork into the space.
She also got a grown up, beauty care corner with fluffy pillows to relax on.
Along with make up and skin care products in pretty containers.
The desk was from her other room, but the curtains are new.
They are sheers with green vines, topped with a pair of blue, ombré panels.
A lot of the room stayed the same, like the clouds on the ceiling.
I hope she doesn’t outgrow that part, because I know I won’t.
I am still redoing rooms, and moving things about
collections, Corona virus, cottage, family, Kitchen remodelA couple years back, I decided I needed a big hutch type piece to use in the kitchen for extra storage. I found a large base cabinet, and a tall book shelf with glass doors that worked.
But wasn't just quite right.
THIS piece is very much right!!!
And very old and well made. Look at the construction of the drawer!
This is what I had before (it is now in the studio, which means a big shuffle up out there and a cabinet from the studio being moved to the breezeway, and well, more shuffling).
See, it holds a lot, but wasn't just quite right. I did like the way I could see all the of the dishes behind glass, but all of this and more fit into the newer, larger hutch.
I might miss the display area behind glass when it is time to dust. The new one has much, much less of that.
But it holds soooooo much, much more inside the doors and drawers below that I am very happy with it.
My Apple Watch has been broken for months. And I have been too cheap to replace it. But when I saw this, I didn't have second thoughts about being cheap, I'd looked for so many years for a hutch that had this much storage space.
Plus, I have been on an organizing, cleaning, and storage redo blowout lately.
When this came into the house, I decided to take every single thing out of all of the other kitchen cabinets and rearrange every bit of it.
Maybe it is my way of dealing with grief.
Maybe it is from being cooped up in the house for so many months.
Either way, my many redos have been helpful. I've fixed up Ryan's room, the gazebo area, both little grand fairies' rooms, the breezeway, part of the studio, now this. I'm running out of house to redo.
Even though I knew this hutch was ideal when I first saw it, and was ready to buy it in snap with no thought, I did have a horrid moment when I realized how heavy it was, and how many other big pieces of furniture would have to be moved to make space for it.
And remembering that Ryan, my "Machine", was gone. He was so strong, and so helpful, that was his nickname. He just kept going, working hard and making it look easy.
He was always around to carry and move things for me.
I was knocked over with pain as these thoughts went through my mind.
There are going to be a lot of those moments. A lot of that pain.
But we go on, don't we?
My very strong, older grand fairies came over to help. We used pads to slide the piece through the house. Between the two girls and my husband, they hefted it out of the truck and lifted the large top piece onto the base once they got it into the kitchen. It is even heavier than it looks, and we all missed Ryan while it was being moved.
A Heroic Rescue
cottage, family, kitties, Ryan
Since we got big dogs, our outdoor cats have made themselves scarce to me. Ryan took care of them from his porch, where they had a safe place to enjoy a peaceful meal, with no dogs around.
I knew he cared for them, but had no idea how much time he’d spent with them until he was gone and they started to brave the dangerous hounds to come out to get our attention. We often see them talking to us from the top of the shed, or climbing up to the patio for a visit. If the dogs aren’t out, Joy Joy will follow me around the yard.
They miss him too. 
The other day, Pumpkin was crying loudly and sounding desperate. Rich guessed that the dogs chased her under the shed. My husband was equally desperate to get her out, and I figured that if she’d crawled under it, she’d find her way out if given time. But he insisted, “he wasn’t going to let anything happen to Ryan’s cat.” And went to get a shovel, a hydraulic jack, and some cement blocks.
I was fearing that jacking it up one way, would smash her on the other side. But the area she was we thought she was crying from was butted up to the garage and he couldn’t lift it from that side.
And the shed was sitting on the edge of the hill down to the creek. When he started jacking it up, it even slipped a little that direction and I could just picture it rolling down the slope, bouncing off trees and throwing its contents every which way.
Rich placated me by raising the building a little at a time on each side, and sliding rocks under it as he went, until he got all 3 sides high enough to brace with the cement blocks.
It scared me the whole time, but I am a big chicken about stuff like that. I imagined smashed fingers, knocked over buildings, and worse. Plus, I was not 100% sure the sound was coming from underneath.
He assured me, he saw Pumpkin’s white face under the front corner.
After getting the building high enough, we still heard her crying. But it did sound different.
Yep, there she was, up a tree.
Did she climb out the back while he was raising the front? Or had she been in another part of the tree the whole time?
Under the front corner where Rich thought he saw her, we found this- a mama and seven babies. She had a white face too.
Maybe Pumpkin ran from the dogs, discovered the opossum, and froze under the building, hiding from both?
Well, the cat was now safe, no matter where she’d been or how she got there.
But we couldn’t (and when I say ‘we’, I mean Rich doing all the work while I fretted and worried over his shoulder) lower the shed and not be sure we wouldn’t smash babies.
The shed had to stay on blocks over night, hoping that the little family would find a better place to nest.
Of course, I fretted that the dogs would try to get to the babies and somehow knock the building off it’s blocks, so we kept them inside just in case.
Everyone relocated as we had hoped by the next morning and I let Rich put everything back without my shrieks of “be careful!” “Watch out” “that does NOT look safe” and more.
Kindnesses sparked redos
Corona virus, cottage, family, flowers, friends, Ryan 
While my friends and I have gotten to be pretty good at meeting up for walks, socially distant porch parties, and other safe activities where we can visit in ventilated places somewhat apart from each other, we haven’t figured out how to do a Mosaic Day together.
We used to gather most Thursdays in Shan’s basement studio, catch up on each other’s happenings, and glue glass bits from the vast bins of colors Shanna had for us to dig through, onto all sorts of items.
Over a year ago, I started this pot, and since I couldn’t make it there every week, or sometimes brought a pressing work project from home instead, it took a long time to progress. But just as I was getting excited about completion, Covid hit and all production halted.
Then recently, my sweet and talented friend offered finish the pot for me and I was thrilled! My design was done, the background and grout were all that was left, and she was going to help with the grout anyway.
Plus, this way, I could call the pot a collaboration with a master stain glass artist!
(See the stunning piece hanging behind her? Also, please notice the beautiful doodle, one of Sugar’s babies, Shan’s home is full of pretty creations.)
How generous of her to do this for me.
When Ryan died, we received a planter jam packed with greenery. It has been a couple of months now, and while I’m slightly sure I could’ve kept them alive as is, I was relieved to have something larger to transplant them into.
While I was at it, I repotted some other plants and spread the arrangement into some extra pots too.
Then, while picking up supplies at Hobby Lobby, I saw these blue coffee pots on clearance and got one to go along with the refreshing of the kitchen I’d started with the new plantings.
Cheerful, right?
And cheery is very much appreciated right now. Missing Ryan is a constant with me, and I know always will be. I write notes to him, talk to him on my walks, sit in the gazebo and listen to his wind chimes. I think of all the boring little details in my life that he would have listened to me telling him about. And how he honestly would be interested in hearing them.
For the first few weeks, it seemed like we had so much going on, kids to entertain and feed, places to go, chores to do, projects to work on. Dinners to cook, shopping to do. I complained to myself that I just wanted to be left alone.
That I wanted to crawl into bed and not get out.
That I wanted to be alone to be sad and not do anything at all.
Looking back, I wonder if I was doing it right all along, by just keeping going. Not just keeping busy, but being active and part of the world around me. Which isn’t easy to do in the Age of Corona. And it isn’t easy to do when I am sad. But for me, it probably was the best thing I could do.
Heart break will always be with me. But it also makes me realize that the good that surrounds me might not always be with with me. I work to treasure my blessings, appreciate what I have, and to keep my home as much of a pretty, and peaceful sanctuary as I can. To reach out to friends and family that I love.
To not curl up in the darkness.
Renewed, not erased
cottage, redos, Ryan
For Ryan’s 40th birthday, we redid his apartment on the side of our house. His brother was hired to do most of the work, Ry was his assistant and also did a lot of the painting.
What I hadn’t expected, was that he had strong opinions on how the rooms were going to be done. That is when I discovered that he was a HGTV addict. And had some good ideas as well as good taste.
After our son was gone, my husband started spending time up in the apartment, feeling close to Ryan while he read a book or just sat and thought. We decided to make the room more functional as a guest room, or a place we could spend time in, while keeping Ryan’s original design choices.
Being in Ryan’s home felt good, and we took our time, deep cleaning, moving things around, hanging stuff. It was nice to have a reason to be there, and we wanted to make the space more of a part of our home. Kind of as a way to keep him close.
I didn’t change the bathroom at all. I kind of wanted to hang different artwork, but the painting is one I did of a view from the Wyoming lake house vacation that he went on with us. The colors don’t match the room, but he sat with me as I painted it and he loved that piece of art.
I would like to do a mosaic to hang on the front of the TV cabinet. Maybe later.
The chair is one that I had in the main house, but thought it looked better up here.
The framed, vintage, cardinal print is something that will always remind me of him. We have had a cardinal that has pecked at and attacked our windows since last October. He became Ryan’s nemesis and we all laughed about their war for months.
That’s why I put the ceramic red bird on his coffee table.
We named the persistent bird, Malarkey, after a contestant on Top Chef last season.
Ryan was a cook and loved the show. But he could not stand that guy, because Malarkey was a show off, bragging type who always ran his mouth and sometimes spoke badly of other contestants.
Ryan himself was a hard worker who believed in doing the tough jobs, not talking about doing them. He had no respect for guys like Malarkey and we used to cross our fingers and cheer for him to pack his knives and go each week.
It took us a while to watch the rest of the series after we lost our Ryan. And when Malarkey finally left, Rich and I cried as we applauded the decision.
So now, Malarkey the red bird is represented in Ry’s apartment as a reminder of how many laughs we had together over both.
The purple statice was dried from a place floral arrangement sent by a nephew.
The multi color vases by the TV were saved from bouquets sent after Ryan died too. I kept all of the vases and have plans to mosaic some of them.
The far wall is where the mini home gym once was. We already have a workout area in the office, so changed this to a dining spot.
If some day, a grand fairy moves in, or if needed for some other reason, we can bring in a small fridge and microwave. For now, a gate leg table from the hearth room and a couple chairs from the studio were enough.
Speaking of grand fairies moving in, Sugarwings discovered the XBox and now calls this her apartment when she goes up to play it. Ryan would get a kick out of that.
I found these curtains at Walmart for $5 a pair, and they suit the room nicely. 
The bedspread isn’t as ideal, but was one I already had. It’s okay, but I might look around for something a bit more “farmhouse-ish”. The bedside lamp was $2 at Goodwill, and the headboard $100 from Nebraska Furniture Mart.
He already had the quilt there, it was one my mom made for him from some scraps leftover of clothes she’d sewn for him as a kid.
I had the mirror/window in the breezeway for over a decade and was ready for a change. It goes well here.
The curtains actually match better in person than they seem to in the photo. He had picked them out with me.
The print on the wall is from a painting I had done. It also reminds me of my boy, but in a convoluted way. When Ryan had to have his gallbladder removed, and we spent days at the hospital while he recovered from a serious infection, we roamed the halls quite a bit to stretch our legs. While exploring, I was surprised to see the original of this hanging through the window of an office.
This picture will always make me think of those days hanging out at the hospital with him.
This is sentimental too. When I was on a pour paint kick, Ryan was my biggest fan. I couldn’t convince him to do one with me, but he did keep me company and chose colors for me to make some pieces for his place.
He liked them so much, that he had a few too many hanging around. I gave some away to people who cared about him and saved a couple that I have cut up to make into a photo album cover. I’ve already been sorting photos of him and am impatiently waiting til I have time to create the book.
While redoing, I touched up the paint that was nicked in a few spots and repainted his front door. As I redid the entry, I pictured how happy Ryan would’ve been if I’d done that one day while he was at work.
I can just hear the excitement in his voice as discovered the fresh paint and he thanked me.
He was so appreciative of every little thing. So much so, that he made doing things for him very rewarding, he was so pleased by it. There wasn’t a single meal he ate that he didn’t compliment me on and thank me. Every single dinner would get a “Thank you, Mom, that was good”.
I could tell if he really, really liked it, because the phrase would become, “Thank you, Mom, that was goooooood!”
I think he would like knowing that we are visiting his little home and spending time there. I wish I could tell him, “Thank you for your decorating choices, Ryan. They are gooooooood!”
A place to hold hands and reminisce for our 35th anniversary
celebrations, cottage, flowers, Ryan
For our 35th anniversary on Monday, I wanted to find a meaningful gift for my husband.
Since Ryan died, we have spent a lot of time sitting in our gazebo, listening to the wind chimes and thinking about our boy.
We watch the chickens play in the sprinkler, talk to the dogs, and hold hands. It has become our place to remember Ryan, and to be together.
Oh, and drink some wine, too.
So when it came to picking out a gift, I figured that a matching set of cozy rockers to sit in together would be ideal. I searched online for something just right and wasn’t having the best of luck. Then, I saw this set (on clearance, too) at TJMax and knew they were just what I had been looking for.
When we remodeled Ryan’s apartment for his 40th birthday, he chose everything in the rooms, and had gone with a lot of grays in a kind of modern, farmhouse style (he watched a lot of TV decorating shows for ideas).
These rocking chairs would look equally good with Ryan’s color scheme as they do in our garden.
I think he would approve of them.
Once I set them in the spot, I realized that rocks aren’t great for rockers… so I went back online and found a matching, outdoor rug. From Walmart, and it seems to be of a nice quality and looks pretty good there.
It is a peaceful place that has become very special to us. I can see us sitting there together, holding hands and reminiscing throughout our next 35 years with each other.
Birthday Party Decor Without a Trip to the Store
celebrations, Corona virus, cottage, family, flowers, Food and Drink, Sugarwings, We're having a party
There are many things that social distancing has made more complicated. And hosting a birthday party was one of them. Sugarwings spends time between our household and her mom’s, so our two groups have been able to mingle, but sadly, we could not have other family members over to celebrate with us.
We also couldn’t pop into a store for last minute items, like the balloons that Sugarwings wanted for the table. She loves planning our family parties, and is the one who set this up.
We did have one last package of water balloons leftover from last summer, the kind that come in a big bunch, that you hook up directly to a faucet to fill up.
She could have taken each off its stem and blown it up, but we decided balloons filled with water could be extra fun. We floated them in clear glass bowls and used them as a centerpiece.
There were some banner pieces packed away, but not anything personal, so the Grand Fairy printed some dragons to hang onto the banners. And we agreed that the colorful dragons tied in the color of the balloons to the banners.
But the best part of the meal was the dolce de leche cheesecake that our Hippy Chick spent all afternoon working on. She came over to our house to bake it, and that added to the festive feel of putting a party together.
We missed the rest of our big family, but know that staying away, and staying healthy now means we will be celebrating with them later when all of this ends.
An Entryway Redo in Response to Corona Clutter
Corona virus, cottage, Hand Painted Furniture
Does anyone else deal with Corona Clutter? At first, it seemed temporary, and we were adjusting to figuring out what paraphernalia we needed as we came in and out of the house.
But after a few weeks of seeing this jumble of gloves, masks, hand sanitizers, bags, and more filling up the table by the breezeway door, I needed to find a better solution.
Not to mention the big, plastic folding table we had set up for home schooling in the other room.
So, this gate leg table was sent to replace the one in the homework spot, with the lamp along with it.
The large white box is what I use to sort mail, and this isn’t the door we usually bring the mail in through. So it also left the area and is in a more convenient place near the front door of the house that we typically use when checking the mail or getting the newspaper.
This is the door we use when going to the car, so I waned everything we might need for gearing up to face the virus laden public, all here in an organized way.
This little cabinet that used to be in the studio before last year’s redo seemed to be just what I was looking for. (Shopping for something new would have been more fun, but then- if that was an option, I would not have needed a Corona Corner, would I?)
The white, wooden basket was full of supplies in the studio, but was better suited here, so those items are currently dumped out and waiting for me to figure out what to stash them into instead.
While this was all practical, it still wasn’t quite right. It served the purpose, but didn’t lift my spirits as much as I had hoped.
So I whipped out some white paint, vintage wallpaper, and decoupage medium.
Ahhh, much better! Lighter and happier.
The doors and drawer are there for larger items like leashes and bags. The cookie jar of dog treats sits on the pedestal. There is a chair for changing shoes.
A flower pot for sunglasses and items that need to be taken care of on errands, like checks, coupons, etc. I sat it on a small, wallpaper box just to add a little more color.
The lidless depression glass canister that matches the one the dog treats are in, was where I had previously stashed supplies. But it wasn’t big enough and didn’t hide the messiness. Or the ugly, orange gloves.
It is much nicer filled with flowers picked in our ditch.
The wooden basket was ideal to fit a box of masks, a stash of gloves, and the hand sanitizer.
I am thrilled to own a box of masks and gloves. I found the XXLg gloves on Amazon and the box of masks at the hardware store. The hand sanitizer is home made. I took glycerin from a soap making project, then added lavender oil and alcohol to it.
And the surface wipes are too, sorta. I took a package of wash wipes from the studio, put them into ziplock bags and poured alcohol over them.
This pattern is one of my favorite old wallpapers and I will love having a bit of it in my house.
To add it, I rough cut a piece with the bouquet centered, and pressed it into decoupage glue on the door, then,I used my fingernail to crease the paper and cut it out inside the frame of the door. This paper is delicate, so I did not worry too much about trying to get small bubbles out, they don’t bother me.
White chalk paint was applied in a dry brush style for a distressed look. I painted right over knobs as is, and didn’t take time to paint the interior or give it a clear coat of poly or wax.
I was in the mood for a quick and pretty fix. And this simple project of moving things around, slapping on some paint and paper took me under two hours from the point when I was sitting in the kitchen, staring at the clutter and needing a new view, til it was done.
We might all be needing a fresh view after so much time in our homes. This little change perked me up.
The Grandfather Tree Resin River and Rock Table
Corona virus, cottage, family 
I don’t think that I ever followed up on my story about our Grandfather Table. I shared the process of creating it, and there have been photos of it in the background here and there.
But I haven’t shown you the complete finished product.
Last fall was a full, and emotional time for me. With my son’s family splitting up, trying to get their house (that we owned) fixed up and listed before the real estate market hit its winter doldrums.
(There is not a day that goes by, that I am not thanking my lucky stars and feeling blessed that we sold it before winter, because this spring’s selling period? Oh, I think you know how the corona virus has affected that!).
A lot was going on, throughout the heartache of the family readjusting to its new arrangements and relationships. My husband retired, we had family trips, I hurt my shoulder, had a concussion, hosted A Snowbird’s Song, and well, just kind of hung in as best as I could. 
But now? Life is on a much more laid back course for us here at the cottage. And the problems that I thought were so huge last fall seem petty now.
All of that stress about my husband quitting his job? Gone. Even though our savings sure took a deep dive now, with the suffering so many are going through without jobs, I have nothing to complain about.
We have a home we won’t lose.
We have food.
We have each other.
Having my husband home, by my side while we go through this together has made me love the fact that he retired so early.
Who knows what might happen with our retirement savings, we might both need to find jobs when possible, but it is something we will face as a couple.
Sitting together at this table, each morning, drinking coffee, looking at the wildflowers he picked for me in the woods, I am comforted.
The history of this table, and my husband’s sweet, sentimental reasons for having it built mean even more.
(You can read the background HERE)
To my husband, the tree reminds him of telling stories to the grand fairies under the old oak it was built from. Family stories of his grandfather.
To me? I was fearing that it was going to always remind me of that rough time last Fall, when I was heartsick and injured, worried and tired. Facing much bigger problems in my life now, and not just in mine, but world wide devastation from this insidious virus, this table has come to represent something else to me.
A solid relationship, as strong as the oak.
And hope for the time ahead, when family can once again gather around this table together.