The malaise of 2020 is spilling over into 2021 for me. I have made efforts to be creative and busy, but haven’t had any project consume me, like they have in the past.
Lots of embroidery happened, because it’s kind of a mindless task, just to keep my hands busy in front of the TV.
I’ve had some studio time, but it is all a lot of simple projects, like doodling on this tag.
Or trying to make my own dog tags. I have also painted a lot of things, repaired and reorganized. But most were “one of”. Nothing prolific, as I have always been in the past. Typically, if I make something, I can’t stop and next thing you know, there are twenty of them.
I made a scrapbook for Ryan, fairy wings with the grand fairies, and added a vinyl floor to the closet/laundry room.
That was a long delayed job, and has made the floor much warmer.
I even decided that I’d start grooming the dogs myself.
At least the little dogs.
So, I’ve kept busy. I’ve gone for long walks, had socially distant visits with friends, and stayed active. I think the unease and uncertainty in the world because of the virus, and the unimaginable loss of my son who was also one of my best friends has dampened my drive.
We have a camper trip planned, and I hope to clear my mind and refresh my soul with some sea air. When I get back, I’d like to work on reopening my shop. It’s not exactly closed, but it is ignored right now. It would be good for me to revamp and restock for spring.
It has been important to me that I don’t lose myself to the sadness, that I keep crafting, creating, contributing. And while nothing will ever be the same, I am slowly trying to rebuild my world.
Hi Karla. I think what you are experiencing is similar to what everybody is going through; yours of course magnified greatly by the loss of your son. I had a text tonight from a friend who had lost her mom recently, not unexpected, but it still has affected her with lack of motivation. So, if nothing else, you’re in good company!